"It's a quarter after one but I'm all alone right now, I need you now"
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I make mistakes.
I hurt people.
But when I say sorry, I mean it...
"Walking Around Like A Wounded Soldier"
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Monday, July 4, 2011 @ 3:13 AM
Today I saw my toughest boys crying non stop. They are the boys who would never in your wildest dreams cry in public. They are the boys who would just keep their composure.
But today, I saw all of them cry. I told myself not to cry at the funeral but seeing them cry. I just couldn't. We all feel lost and sad but I can't imagine how Azmin is feeling right now. I can't imagine losing my mother when I am this young.
He said something that makes me cry every time i think about it... "Yesterday i had a mother, today i don't". It hurts me alot to hear him say that and when he told me he couldn't accept the fact that the mother is gone...
All I want to do right now is hug Azmin real tight and tell him everything is going to be alright but I know it wouldn't change anything.
Sunday, April 10, 2011 @ 11:27 AM
I am sorry. I can't do this anymore. I know I promised you that I wouldn't let anything affect our friendship but I can't.
I just can't do this any longer. I don't want to make you choose cause I know you will choose your girlfriend.
So i rather make the decision to let you two be and leave quietly. Sorry me and your girlfriend just won't click. We have to much history that it makes it impossible for me to forgive and forget. It hurts so much to know that you practically dont care about me or even all of us anymore.
But I came to terms with it. I lost my good friend the moment you and her happened. sorry. I know I sound damn selfish but no. I cant do it. I cant even go out with you peacefully anymore. You always have to report to her when you are going out. You are always texting her even when we are out. You do things for her and not for yourself anymore. When she does come along, you totally ignore us and there she will be acting all superior than us... She looks down on us and no, I wont tolerate this kind of shit anymore.
So baby, I will still be somewhere around here lingering. sorry... i really can't tolerate her shit anymore. really can't...
Thursday, April 7, 2011 @ 8:00 AM
1. WENT FOR THE THE FMS FBC CAMP EVER !!
So I have only been to two but this was so much fun! Including the fact that, We, The XMEN, won Best Tribe, Cheer Off and Final Clash. Ya. We are awesome like that. Anything with Dyan and Fizah would turn awesome without a doubt. Made tons of new friends even those that I have seen around in school but never ever speak too. And oh ya freshies :( No cute ones. Ouh before I forget, I enjoyed all my 3 nights I spent at the loft. From the room hopping to the makcik moments at 4 am with Zidd to Ievan and Iffah Show to Ryo's snores to Joey's sleep talking to Malay Fiesta. Everything. Love everything.
2. Made up my mind to interview for SS.
I think I should after talking to so many people.
3. Lost my wallet for two days without me realising.
Ya feel damn stupid about it.
4. MY PHONE IS DEAD.
As in really dead that I am going to bury it somewhere.
5. TIMETABLE IS OUT !!
My narwal is not in the same class as me. Such a bummer. Kind of feel that I lost my comfort zone but I still have XY and Dee with me. So I think I can manage.
6. Just asked XY mother to adopt me.
HAHAH so I can stay over at her house for the entire sem. Timetable is such a slut. 9 AM every freaking day :/
7. Mother and Sister going jakarta without me.
SCHOOL SUCKS !!!!
Okae done ranting. still too tired for a proper post. Need to wait for pictures to be up on facebook before I can actually blog properly about XMEN !!!
Wednesday, March 30, 2011 @ 8:35 AM
Vanessa Fernandez - Satisfy Me from Tha Artist on Vimeo.
Very nicely done by The Raapow :D
@ 8:08 AM
Maybe it is the truth and I should just stop.
Just stop caring about everyone.
@ 8:00 AM
But somehow I won't cause I know whatever I said was the truth.
I can only say it but you have to do something about it.
It was not your first neither would it be your last.
Just so you know, I love you no matter what.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011 @ 11:51 AM
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